Billie Eilish - everything I wanted
2019-12-05
一首歌喚起人們在世人目光之下的彆扭與辛酸。也許成名是一場人人都渴求的美夢，但在接踵而來的美好後面，可能有排山倒海的注視壓得讓人喘不過氣。
everything I wanted 是 Billie Eilish 在今年三月推出專輯《When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?》後，第一首全新發佈的歌曲。這首歌一如往常是由 Billie Eilish 與她哥哥 Finneas 共同譜寫，並也是由她哥哥製作整首歌。
這首歌想傳達的心境就像是每個早年成名的人會面臨的種種複雜情緒的集結，名聲所帶來的一切看似美好，卻有點多到難以承受。失望與期望對立，期待越大可能會導致失望越大。在成長過程中，每個人都會有過這樣的壓力。無論是來自父母、朋友、或是伴侶，這股無形的力量有如緊掐著脖子的雙手，讓人窒息。然而，面對如此的期望，也許不能感變別人看自己的方式，但至少能改變自己看自己的方式。
Billie Eilish 用這首歌，喚起人們在世人目光之下的彆扭與辛酸。也許成名是一場人人都渴求的美夢，但在接踵而來的美好後面，可能有排山倒海的注視壓得讓人喘不過氣。
中文與英文歌詞
I had a dream
我做了個夢
I got everything I wanted
發生了如我所想的
Not what you'd think
那你會怎麼想呢
And if I'm bein' honest
若是我如實以據
It might've been a nightmare
那原本可能會是個惡夢
To anyone who might care
僅送給在乎我的人
Thought I could fly (Fly)
原以為我能飛
So I stepped off the Golden, mm
所以從金門大橋踏出了那一步
Nobody cried (Cried, cried, cried, cried)
沒人傷心
Nobody even noticed
甚至沒人查覺
I saw them standing right there
我看著他們站在那
Kinda thought they might care (Might care, might care)
以為他們可能會在乎
I had a dream
我做了個夢
I got everything I wanted
還是發生了
But when I wake up, I see
但我醒來後看到的是
You with me
你在我身邊
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
你說"我在這，沒人能傷你"
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
不太想說謊，但你可以試著去學
If I could change the way that you see yourself
若我能改變你
You wouldn't wonder why here, they don't deserve you"
你根本不會覺得為何我說，他們不值得你
I tried to scream
我試著放聲大叫
But my head was underwater
但我現在已在水底下
They called me weak
他們說我很懦弱
Like I'm not just somebody's daughter
如同他們認識我一樣
Coulda been a nightmare
或許只是個夢
But it felt like they were right there
但卻有點真實
And it feels like yesterday was a year ago
時光似箭
But I don't wanna let anybody know
我不想讓任何人知道
'Cause everybody wants something from me now
因為他們都還抱著希望
And I don't wanna let 'em down
而我不想讓他們失望
I had a dream
我做了個夢
I got everything I wanted
還是發生了
But when I wake up, I see
但我醒來後看到的是
You with me
你在我身邊
And you say, "As long as I'm here, no one can hurt you
你說"我在這，沒人能傷你"
Don't wanna lie here, but you can learn to
不太想說謊，但你可以試著去學
If I could change the way that you see yourself
若我能改變你
You wouldn't wonder why here, they don't deserve you"
你根本不會覺得為何我說，他們不值得你
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
若當時我知道，我還會這麼做嗎
Would I do it again?
我還會這麼做嗎
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
若當時他們知道我會走心
What would they say instead?
他們會改說什麼
If I knew it all then, would I do it again?
若當時我知道，我還會這麼做嗎
Would I do it again?
我還會這麼做嗎
If they knew what they said would go straight to my head
若當時他們知道我會走心
What would they say instead?
他們還會這麼說嗎